There's always a reason why we do things. Why we unconsciously avoid stepping on the cracks in a tiled floor. Why we eat cupcakes from the bottom up instead of from the side. Why we listen to the music we do. Why we spend time with the people we do.
Why I have a blog.
Why do I have a blog? People who know me in real life know that I'm an introvert who spends a lot of time sitting at his computer, playing videogames or writing code or whatever else I might be doing. I avoid social media like the plague. I have a LinkedIn for work purposes, but never post. I have a Diaspora* (the asterisk is part of the name, not a footnote), but who's even heard of that? Besides, I hardly look at it, if I'm being honest. Maybe I'll start using it more…
I'm not the kind of person to share my life with people, so why do I have a blog? Even I'm confused by it. I think it boils down to the fact that I'm writing, though.
I write what I do for a few reasons:
- To clarify my thoughts
- To understand myself and my world
- To escape the place I'm in and enter a world of my own creation
- With the hope that what I write will help one person, sometime, somewhere
You can find examples of all of these on this blog, actually. Most posts on this blog are me clarifying my thoughts on matters of theology, with some hope that they can clarify the matter for others as well. This one in particular is very much an attempt at understanding myself. The fan fiction and other stories I write are my chances to escape my world for a time and create something new, though sometimes these stories end up inadvertently teaching me something about myself anyways.
As for why I post these things online for others to read… I don't know. As far as I am aware, the only people who read this are my parents and a few friends who know me in person. Am I explaining myself to them? Maybe, but I don't think so. That's usually reserved for conversation. Maybe I'm making a record of myself that will last as long as the internet does. I suppose it makes sense; after all, one of the most depressing thoughts is the one that, one day, “I” will be completely forgotten. If that's part of it, though, it's not the full story. There's always the bit about hoping I can help someone, somewhere, but how does my writing stories fit into that?
I don't know.
Maybe I just like sharing my creations with people. That could be it.
All I know is that I'm going to continue writing posts and stories and uploading them. Whatever reason you have for coming to this website and reading what I have here, I hope you find my posts enjoyable, informative, and/or thought-provoking. And maybe one day I'll understand why I do this.